updatess.

alright. yesterday marked my one month off the blog. too lazy to blog la. but actually alot happened during this one month.

lets just pick one to talk about. theres this competition for the bb primers that is held once a year in one of the polys that has bb as a CCA. theres competition for soccer, captains ball and basketball. but knowing 5th coy, we only joined soccer. last year we played and we lost. it was very emotional as some of us cried la. sad to see that scene sia. so this year we came back with a vengeance. HAHA. this time round we came back with more people also and nevertheless more quality. with some hiccups on the way, we came back as champions. it was really tiring la. like started at 8am and ended at 5pm? thats like office hour la! but nevertheless we enjoyed it la. every single match. but theres something that really disturbed me at the end of everything. prize was given and everything was settled. this pastor came out and lead us in vesper. he looked in our direction and saw one of our guys talking. this is what he said.

" can you guys please stop talking? please dont act like you're primary school kids. "

!!!! i really cant stand it man. being somebody with authority. being somebody who spread the word of God. cant he just say it POLITELY?!?! like just "please stop talking"?!?! must he like add the "DONT ACT LIKE YOU"RE PRIMARY SCHOOL KIDS"?!?! i think hes just sore that his team lost to us. hes just trying to embarass us in front of his people. so that would help save some face issit? i cant say that im a holy person. but at the very least, i dont shame people. this is the way of a LOSER. this pastor is from FCBC. im just ranting. dont mind.

----

this past weeks has been a rollercoaster ride for me. unexpected things happened. things that i've never thought of before. maybe its God's will? i dont know. i think im quite an impatient person. i want things done quick. maybe its my upbringing. my mum always expect things to be done quick or else i wld have a battle scar ( cane scar ). some things in life we have to do it fast. but some stuff we couldnt rush it. we just have to take it slow. maybe God is giving me a chance to learn this good habit of being patient. im still far from being able to say that im a good christian. but im trying, very hard. i just hope that everything i do now would pay off someday, somewhere, on something.

i more of a pessimist than a optimist. on the surface, i take things lightly. inside me, nobody knows. haha. i dont like to frown or look sad in front of people. joking is a good way of shielding this side of me. sometimes i really think that i keep too much things to myself already. but i just cant bring myself to trust anyone. maybe again, its my upbringing. growing up with a single parent is not easy. i've had my fair share of tears and loneliness. imagine being without my mother for 2 years. although im still young at that time, it did some damage nevertheless.

i read in someone's blog that we should not get our hopes too high on things so that we wouldnt fall so hard. well, that doesnt apply for studies la. i've been using this 'formula' on my life for quite some time already. its easier to get over things this way la. you wouldnt brood over it for too long. but its not good in a way that, you will lose hope quickly once you sense things are not right. good in one way, bad in another. you judge it.


this entry is very random. dont mind.

tagged!

The person who tagged you : Png Yiye

The most memorable things she has done for you :
hmmm. buying cans of drinks and putting them into a red/blue/white bag? 6 cans to be exact. NONE CARBONATED ONE SOMEMORE.

If she is your lover, what improvement/s would you like to see her changing :
haha. spend less money? erm. slim down? (slimming down is what she wants also =X)

If she becomes your enemy, you will?
delete her from caontacts? i dont know.

The reason why she becomes my enemy?
i drank carbonated drinks. HA.

The most desire thing you would like to do for her:
let her know the true joy of drinking carbonated drinks. hee.

Your overall impression of her:
always laughing.

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for :
ohhman! mine passed already. sian.

1. white acoustic guitar.
2. piano.
3. an everlast shoe.
4. a new handphone.
5. another watch? just so that i dont spoil my everlast one THAT fast.

The character you love about yourself :
funny? (i hope?)

On the contrary, what do you hate about yourself :
laziness? sometimes i can be abit proud la. but trying to change now. hope its better now.

The most ideal person you would like to be with :
HAHA. linda liao? pretty girl man!

What do you want to say to your loved ones :
bear with me.

Pass this quiz to 9 friends whom you wish to know how they feel about you :
this is THE part i hate about this type of quizes. its soooooo hard to think of names man! i just anyhow put la. see they got read or not. if not then no need do. haha.

1. gerard cheah
2. lingyen
3. brina
4. hannah lim
5. elaine chong
6. chua jun ping
7. minyi
8. sweekiat
9. yamyam

When was the last time you chatted with #3 :
hmm. last month i think?

What kind of music does #8 like :
err. christian contemporary?

Does #6 has any siblings :
nah.

Will you woo #3 :
haha. cant.

How about #7 :
hmm. think this question cant apply to her la.

Is #4 single :
she says she is la. haha.

Surname of #5 :
chong

Nickname of #1 :
fatty cheah

What’s the hobby for #5 :
wahh. i veryyyyyy long never talk to her alr leh. dont know.

Do #5 and 9 get along well :
should be la. #9 is a fatherly figure. hee.

Where is #3 studying at :
NYP

Have you tried developing feelings for #1:
IM NOT GAY!

Where does #9 live :
just opposite yiye's hse. as she said, the silk road.

What colour does #4 dislike :
haha. i think im just making a fool out of myself. i dont know.

Is #1 and 3 best friends :
haha. friends la. not the best.

Does#7 likes #2 :
okay la. once in choir together rite?

How do you know #2 :
secondary school

Does #5 owns a pet :
i think so. a dog rite?

sports

the result of playing soccer under the blazing hot sun without my shirt on? sunburnt. and to top it up, i repeated the act today, playing field soccer and once again without my shirt on. wonderful. now i must start counting how long this skin of mine will take to heal. hmmmmmmm..

okay. so here i am, blogging. awaiting the time to switch on my plasma teevee and be a potato couch for 4.5hours? madness rite. but thats the life of a soccer fan la. and also, quite a good way to slack at home too. watching 20 guys chase after a ball with 2 retarded freaks wearing gigantic gloves just so that they could stop the ball, is kinda fun in a way. i mean, im not gay myself. its just the passion these guys show influence me. its different from watching basketball eh. more often or not, basketball matches are won by many individual moments. considering that the court isnt REALLY that big. and the scoreline can go double digit, whats the point man?

anyway, team sports(excluding basketball) are really nice to watch and play. all the politics, the conflicts, the individual talents, the diving, the robotic dancing(HAHA!! CROUCHHHHH!). rugby is a nice sport to watch too. as for playing it, i think i would give it a miss. just looking at the size of the players. WOAH!

talking about sports. dont you all think Americans are sooooooo wonderful? they create their own leagues and still play as if that is the international thing. well, sure there is yao ming playing, but it just give the Americans an extra reason to be racist isnt it. they even create their own sports and name it football. crap. and how do one play it? just take a ball and run. no skill. just speed. lousy. comparing it with building sandcastles? i think sandcastles win them hands down.

"sick" day

today is the first day i went out after falling ill. although the feeling is awful, but it also feels good to be able to sleep the whole day and your mum will still tell you to sleep more. being sick is a reason for a person to slack BIG TIME. HAHA.

so i went out with gerard and gang. all not my age. but okay la. bb people. went to watch 1408. i tell you. DONT WATCH IT! it sucks man. its the first horror film that i wasnt scared at all. i nearly slept la. all the horror stuff are so overly-used and plot sucks. it just doesnt blend well. wasted my 7bucks.

so after movie, we just walked around town. from paragon - far east (thats quite FAR mind you). after that stupendous walk, we tried to find our way to Co-Curricular Activities Branch aka CCAB for our inter-UG conference briefing. in the end, we took a cab, not a bad choice considering that place is poorly located. crap.

the briefing is boring la. but one thing said by one of the guys there is funny.

" ...boys, ...girls, i hope there are no in betweens ar. i mean i don't have anything against homosexuality as long as its not made compulsory! "

that was funny man. humorous. TOTALLY.

GATHERING!!!

so we had a mini outting today. it was great talking to those crazy girls again. HAHA. all the jokes. had fun myself. im sure the others had fun too. haha. alright. photos taken using my mac. hannah! come take! =D

presenting.. SISTER

well. my sister.











quite noisy sometimes. but nevertheless. she has brought much joy into the family.
not bad eh. at such a tender age. she can already pose. might be a model when she grow up. HAHA.

Friday

so i had my maths quiz 2 today. haha. to think that i was so worried. it came out well. i did it. i think im on my way to my very first full-marks for quiz. HAHA. anw. saw fiona xie today. woohoo! she came to TP for the Hey! Gorgeous thingy. i think shes auite hot sia. nice figure. WAHAHAHA.

Evan Almighty

just finished watching Evan Almighty. there are values in the movie man. about spending time with family and also being kind. its not really that funny la. okay only. compared to Bruce Almighty.

the other day, yiye was like saying, " why are they making movies on christianity? " its kinda odd to me too. but after i watched, i realise theres a moral behind the story. as i said before, this story talks about spending time with family and being kind. its about a new congressman called, Evan Baxter, called by God (played by Morgan Freeman; wonder why they always use him as God) to be the modern day Noah and build an ark. so he ignores God and God screw up his life until he decided to build the ark.

basically, God is using this excuse to make him spend more time with his family and also exercise abit of kindness everyday. and of course, using this as an excuse to get rid of certain bad guy (played by Mr Flintstone).

watching this movie has made me understand God's way a little bit more. there are some stuff said by Morgan Freeman; who plays God, that really is worth thinking about.

On the story about Noah's Ark,

" Many people miss the point of the story. They think its about God's wrath and anger. It never was about God being angry. Its actually a love story about believing in each other. Animals show up in pairs, they stood by each other. Side by side. Just like Noah and his family. Everybody entered the ark side by side. "

On God's way of answering prayers,

" If someone prays for patience, you think God will give them patience? Or do you think God will give them the opportunity to be patient?
If someone prays for courage, you think God will give them courage? Or do you think God will give them the opportunity to be courageous?
If someone prays for their family to be close, you think God helps him with warm fuzzy feeling? Or give them opportunity to love each other? "


new insight on how God helps people to overcome things. he provides in a different way. from the appearance, this movie may seem to be another commercialised Bible story. read deeper into it, and it may be God's answer to how he guides his children. one new acronym i learned fro this movie.

" You want to know how to change the world son? one Act of Random Kindness at a time. "


A R K


God's amazing isnt it.

excerpts from an article in 8 days (week starting july 19, page 28)..


.. what's worrying is that all these so-called 'favourite' words can be found in fairy tales (usually) read by six-year-olds. We have intellectual myopia; more commonly known as 'jiak buay dua' (refuse to grow up). We're a sheltered and naive people and we don't know it. And we're contented with the lexicon of a kindergarten class. Correct or not?

How do i know this, you ask? i know 30-year-old, act-cute women who still refer themwelves as 'Little Princesses', collect Precious Moments ceramic dolls and believe Harry Potter is the greatest movie franchise ever. That's a grown man riding a broomstick and casting spells with a twig hor..


after reading this article, i can't help but ask myself, can i ever write something like that? this article made me laughed alright. it's funny in a way that it's close to singaporean's everyday life. 30-year-olds, act cute women, calling themselves 'Little Princesses'? don't tell me you have NEVER come across one. the way the writer express how frustrated he is with our society is so hilarious. you all should read the full article, then would you be able to understand regarding the 'favourte' words part. haha.

alright. so days have been kinda boring these days. ever since school started, sleep is never enough. played soccer in church on sunday, realised my stamina is no where to be found. i really need to get my lungs to work again. they arent responding to me. i was panting like a dog during the soccer session. i was half-dead. i really need some fitness regime or smth.

so about today, watched Harry Potter with yiye, zhiwei and shaoyu today. it was nice, but alot of things was cut from the movie. well, im fine with it, i read the book anyway. but for people that doesn't follow the story, they would be lost. the movie proceeded very fast. too fst for anyone to register what happened before. 2hrs is never enough for a Harry Potter film. why can Titanic survive 3hrs and not Harry Potter? don't get it. even Pearl Harbour took 3hrs. come on. do you really need 3hrs to bomb a stupid naval base?

to me, the most exciting part of the movie is the part where dumbledore fought voldemort. nice animations and all. funniest moments? haha. every part when dolores umbridge is not in control. she only proves that the quote 'never judge a book by it's cover' is right. she may look harmless to you, but when she passes someone a pen, you're a dead man. not bad a movie afterall. if you are intending to watch the next film, better watch this one, or else you would be so lost, GPS wouldn't work for you. NOT FUNNY.

went to play for zhiwei's soccer team today. actually just to go help out la. like thought they not enough people so, in case anyone injured, i can just substitute in and play any position. versatile eh. HAHA. fake. in the end, played the entire match, not really sure whether they got enough people in the end or not. was too tired. didnt manage to get the numbers right. haha. tiring day man.

first it was the ulu ulu soccer pitch that timothy commented, " wah! so ulu! if kena heart attack ar! sure die because ambulance cannot find the place. " lol. its true man. its very deep inside some private housing or something like that. but the pitch looks good la. just the that the "groundsman" dont allow us to play eh. saying that we will INJURE ourselves. load of crap. but then again, he is just doing his job la. cant blame him also.

in the end we settled at gan eng seng secondary soccer field, dont know whether its legal or not. just play la! the match ended with the scoreline at 3-2. we won. but tough match la. difficult pitch. blazing sun. ineffective me (?) haha.

thought the match end then my day also end already. BUT! i still have to go for the LWS performing group briefing. in the end decided not to join, too tough for me. i dont sing well. i dont.. not singing well is the main reason la. so no need for the rest. haha.

alright. gotta wake up early tomorrow! song presentation! hope everything goes well man. God bless us!

studying in singapore is really not easy. the amount of stress and the fast-paced system leaves students breathless. the new semester just started, but i'm already feeling the burden already. exam date drawing nearer and nearer scares me. hais.

anyway, i know all my results already. failing maths and microcontroller technology borderly, passing static and strength of materials and programming and automation. didn't expect to fail maths though. all the careless mistakes. tsk tsk.

ohhya. one more thing to end off this post.

don't think she will read though. HAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE!!

well. what can i say? first day of school sucks man. lethargy is all over me. once i board the bus to school, i felt like sleeping. didnt have a good start today. woke up late. almost late for lab test. totally forgot how to patch up the pneumatic circuit.


screwed day.



argh.!



tag replies

Png : haha. yea. scaring ian is quite fun huh. HAHA. we should have our OVERNIGHT outting soon eh!

tiring day. went for bb awards presentation ceremony today. it occupied my whole afternoon. zzz. while going through the ceremony, i was wondering to myself, there are so many JM Frasier Gold Award receipent; even more then Bronze and Silver, wouldnt this make the Gold worthless? since everyone is like getting it? hmm. dont get it.

alright. so after that went to meet up with Ian and Yiye. dinner with this 2, Mr Yam and Amrish. thereafter, went to Icekimo. FINALLY, prata house as the pit stop. just when you're wondering when the food craze will stop huh. HAHA.

i always enjoy the times i hang out with church people. especially Ian, Yiye and Krystal. im not saying that hanging out with the rest is not fun la. dont know how to explain leh. its just like that. going out with the 3 always contains laughter and crappiness. doing weird stuff like..

lying in the middle of the road..

taking photos of ferris wheel?

( hmm. it kinda look like the one in THE PARK )

anw. glad i have this bunch of friends. and also alot others, church people, bb people, God-given.

=)

SETTLER"S CAFE!!!

okay. firstly, its a fun place to go. secondly, got pretty girl!!! HAHA.

alright. so we ( yiye, sk, kelvin and me! ) went to settler's cafe to play games. board games and card games to be exact. wahh. i tell you. its CRAZY! playing with yiye, the loudest laughing person i EVER known. we; a table of four, is laughing even louder then a table of, 10? can you imagine!? yiye is the queen man. the QUEEN.

ALRIGHT. quite some time didnt blog alr huh. haha. okok. so update on life. now holiday. nothing much. just love the days when i can sleep late and wake up late. haha. ohhya. one important thing.

THANKS FOR THE WATCH EVERYONE!!!

they include..

krystal..

yiye..

ian..

mr yam..

kelvin..

minyi..

err. i tink thats all. ha.

okay ar. i blog alr ar. dont always say i didnt say thanks. tsk tsk.

anw. going to go for camp this friday alr. hmm. 4 days away. somehow, im not really very enthusiatic about this camp. feels weird lah. ya. anyhow, i still have to go. just try to enjoy lor. haha. till then~

imagine this..

mrt station. train just arrived. everybody is waiting. train comes to a stop. train door opens. everyone rushing into the train like nobody's business and pushing the people who wants to get out even further in.

well. this is what you will see EVERYDAY in singapore be it the time and place. i really cant take it anymore. don't they have EYES to see?!

for your information, THERE'S A FREAKING BIG STICKER ON THE TRAIN DOOR THAT STATES 'GIVE WAY TO ALIGHTING PASSENGERS' !!

they just keep on pushing and pushing, ignoring the people inside. freaks!

sometimes i really feel like shouting at them. please be more civilised? tsk!

and then theres the parents who sits in the train and read their newspaper ignoring the fact that their precious children is making a nuisance and trying to act like monkeys. running around and hanging around. think what, your house ar! bloody hell! SINGAPOREANS really need to be taught a lesson man.

im not trying to say im perfect or anything. but at the very least, i don't have a child and i ALWAYS wait till everyone alights before i board the train. i stick to the rules.

simple skin.
simple blog.
simple person.
simple ME!

NEW SKIN.

read a report on papers today. very interesting report as it talks about the definition of TRUTH.

ACCURACY vs TRUTH

here are some definitions the writer got from his friends..

" truth is whatever the world serves on a plate to you. "

" the reason we can conclude that there are no truths in this world is because we are looking for them in the accuracy of facts. "

" in order to tell the truth, we need accuracy. but it is a necessary condition, not a sufficient condition. "

" accuracy is not without merit, but it may be the style of modern journalism or the contemporary i-want-it-now mindset that we have learnt to place too great an emphasis on details. and in getting them right, thus foregoing taking time to fully experience, understand and comprehend matters. "

" accuracy in facts are like shards of truth. but piecing shards together hardly gives you a window pane, much less a window of truth. "



basically, this report pits accuracy against truth. its trying to argue whether truth needs accuracy to be the truth. whether it is a must to be accurate in truth. its kinda mind-boggling when i started reading. but then after awhile, it makes sense. i tink to me, truth is very subjective. it doesnt really need to be very accurate. just like the scientists who predict the global warming effect. they just give an estimate, nobody in the world can give a fixed date that the earth will die out rite. nothing is accurate in the world. even the weather guy makes mistakes.

im not trying to sound smart or anything. just find that this article is interesting..

its in today's NEWPAPER. under the forum page.

woohoo!! watched spiderman 3 today with the guys. haha. no need to name lah. you want the names then go yiye's blog. alright. alright. so it isnt that O'fantastic. probably its becuz of the 'no elaboration' policy Sam Raimi set when he started. something like.. " MORE villians, LESS story " haha.

well. im not saying that the villians are nt nice. they are actually very cool. but its just the elaboration part. like towards the end of the show. suddenly 2 villians decided to team up and kill spidee. then the goblin come and help spidee(?) its like everything give to you at the very last moment and you just cant absorb it. theres just too little time and too much things to say. cant Sam Raimi just make a 3hours movie like Pirates and make it a nice one?

anyway. the one thing that made me love spiderman movies alot is not becuz of spidee actually. its becuz of aunty may and uncle ben. they just seems so out-of-this-world loving. they are simply just so perfect and caring. always giving good advices. most shows have these type of elderly people. but they are different. they are those type that has 'Old-People-Who-Never-Dies' written on their character description thingy. but uncle ben and aunty may seems to have 'Saints-That-Shouldn't-Die' written on theirs. they are just so concern and always pop up at the right moment. they are just like clark kent's parents in Superman. ever-loving. ever-caring. hope that in the future. when i grow old. me and my wife can be like them too =)

today is sunday. so its church as usual! haha. alright. for me. sunday is always the same. but this sunday is different.

29 April 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIWEI!!!

so that is why today is special.. haha..

okok. so had church. after which is soccer!! woah. had fun man. theres no team one. just play. and nobody bothers to take the score down. everyone just play and score and play and score. i cant explain how fun it is. one bad thing. the sun is blazing man. VERY hot. its crazy lah. i nearly died playing man. haiyo.

overall. im quite happy abt my performance for soccer today. at least i did some good moves lah. not much though. haha. and i managed to score a goal! woohoo! although its quite a fluke lah. like got confusion then i just volley into goal. haha. to me. im very happy alr. this is my very first goal playing against them man. haha. happy. happy. happy.

woohoo!!! first day in school after a long time. haha. quite cool eh. started on my new modules and, yes, got into my new class. hmm. i must say. its not bad. at least im nt in a class with a bunch of morons that shouts everytime the tutor makes a mistakes. haha. and the guy that sits beside me is a MANU FAN!! haha. wad a coincidence.

anw. my first lecture tomorrow is LAW. haha. cant wait. duno wad will happen oso. will there be a textbook? issit it cool if theres a textbook. hee. i regretted last sem fer nt buying the psychology textbook. haha. if theres a LAW text i will surely buy man. haha.

thats all fer today. haha. tired..

WOAH. look at it! it has been LONG since i blogged. lol. no time lah. has been working fer the pass 5 days and before that got concert and all sorts of things. busy. busy. busy. haha. holidays are always like that. busier then normal school days.

school starts tomorrow. depressing senario. cuz frm tomorrow onwards. i wld be separated frm my classmates. hais. due to me needing to repeat one module. sian. like going into a new class like that. everyone i duno. it all boils down to adaptibility. haha. hope theres some great ppl in the class. or else im dead fer sure.

OHH OHH. i got LAW as my elective module. haha. last sem i wanted psychology and i got it. this sem i wanted law and, amazingly, i got it too! haha. dont know why. maybe these are modules that nobody wants? stereotyped as boring? dont know leh. but im interested in it. thats wads impt. haha. cant wait man.

for the coming semester. i hope that a change in studying environment can help me man. my target fer this sem is B for all modules. quite a tall order since i've been getting Ds. but nevertheless, i have to try. its my FUTURE. haha. just pray that god will help me thru this semester and get good grades. =)


to ALYNNA -- haha. thanks fer praying eh! haha. im SOOOOOOO much better alr. like recovered completely like that. maybe its ur prayers? haha. =)

i always thought that painting IS fun. well, quite fun lah. but its more tiring then fun. haha. all the chasing of buses. buying of paint. till the starting to paint parts are all fun. but the tireness sets in once we started on actual painting and not fooling around. haha.

in the past i always feel weird when im with my church friends. always feel that i cant fit in. although they are like all my schoolmates(?) just felt that way..

until recently..

i found out why. why i have this feeling. its because i didnt want to fit in. thats the reason. i always feel neglected deep within. self-pity? im not really sure. but im dead sure my upbringing has a problem. i dont really have a perfect family. i know my mum is trying. but 1 never can be 2. i guess it cant be helped. maybe its a test that God gave me so that i would be stronger? im not sure.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

woah. freaking busy lately. supp papers. concert. camp. music lessons. painting of room(?) haha. everything has to be done. just dont know how. like my everyday is packed to the brim? anything more and it will overflow. i might just burst.

i feel that im enjoying church more and more. weird that i hated going to church every sunday. haha. maybe its the fellowship? in my world. i take that my friends are presents that God decided to give me so that i wont break under stress? like candies to kids. haha.

really regretted not learning piano properly. now, looking at everyone with an instrument in hand, i yearn to learn one. so i decided. guitar! haha. hope i would be able to learn to play as soon as possible. =) and maybe. just maybe. i will put my hands on the ivory sticks and start to learn again. if i got the money that is. haha.


supp paper tomorrow..

ohh. it has been quite some time since i blogged. well. it doesnt matter i guess. since my blog has no readers. ha.

has been quite some time since i met out with my church frens alr. and i finally did last night! went to ktv with zhiwei, krys and yiye. woah. sang fer so long. so many songs played. i swear i came out with a hoarse voice man. haha. thereafter its playing pool time with matthew and zhiwei. they are so pro. i only manage to win one round. and thats oso because of zhiwei missing almost every ball. haha. since it was late ( 3am), i went to stay over at his hse. and we slept like 5am? cuz we watched borat! laughed like mad man. but cant get the sound out cuz its late. haha.

slept and woke up at 1pm. its still okay considering that i slept till 4pm the previous day. LOL. im blabbering nonsense now. i dont know what im typing oso. haha. im tired. sleep.

THE RULES

Each player of this game starts with the ‘6 weird things about you.’ People who get tagged need to write a post of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says ‘you are tagged’ in their comments and tell them to read your blog.


6 Weird Things About Me:

1. (alright. this might make plagiarism ring in ur head. but im not copying ian!! alright. there goes) Im actually a quiet person. a quiet person at home. a quiet person alone. i dont really like to talk much. yup.

2. hmm. i have a short temper? i flare up easily. so dont MESS WITH ME. wahahahahaha. -.-"

3. actually theres not much i can think of. so i would skip this.

4. and this.

5. yup. you guessed it. and this. LOL.

6. actually im weird in my own way. so i guess no one really knows me. haha. ahh. im not making any sense. NEVERMIND.


6 moreeee peeps..
1. minhua
2. jinghui
3. eileen
4. junping
5. gabriel
6. gerrard cheah

i must say. im quite a sentimental guy. not to self-praise or what. it might nt be a good thing.

im raised in a single-parent family. i only have my mum. my dad died when i was 2-yrs-old. i wasnt even old enough to know what death is. i just thought that my dad is sleeping. i didnt even have a chance to have a lasting memory of him. my mum will always try to make it up to me by giving me more love. but its nt the same.

going to school. looking at the children holding hands with their dad and mum. dads getting their bags for their child. i feel the sadness everytime. but who do i turn to? i was still a kid. dont really know how to be sad without the hormones in me. i just feel an undescribable emptiness in me. horrible feeling.

luckily. i might this family of people. they are now my godma, goddad, godbro. i was that close to them. they gave me love and taught me the ways. i am grateful to them.

maybe its due to my upbringing, i actuali grow up to become a quiet person in private. to others, i like to show the crazy part of me. i like to show the noisy part of me. but being quiet is the true me. i like the night. the quietness. the peacefulness. i feel very at ease at night. letting the inside me rule.

sometimes i really feel the emptiness. i sometimes ask myself, why, why am i without a father? why am i deprive of that love? whenever i think of all those. i struggle to hold back my tears. i doubt this sadness could ever be erased.

an outing with the Leaders!

you linger in my mind -
i blew my chance -
or shld i say -
im not good at this? -
hope to see you again -
thats my prayer -
=)

woke up late today again. hais. but this time got reason okay. really too tired le. the previous day not enough sleep because of test. then the lack of sleep bring forward to the next day. dats why cant wake up. the worst part. i didnt know today is my PA duty. -.-" cant say its my fault rite? i didnt know lor.

alright. had soccer just now. haha. i feel that i've improved. just by abit lah. duno whether its i improve or they anyhow play leh. like i touch alot of the ball today sia. then somemore did some quite good passes. just that my team finishing not that good. always miss. but overall it was fun lah. at least got win some and i touch alot of the ball. haha.

helping out in the True Love concert. hope i dont screw up.

long day out. went out early in the morning for church. it has been quite some time since nt going to church. felt funny this morning. but right now. i feel that. hey. i quite like this routine on sundays. haha.

as usual had soccer after church. well. im nt a really very good footballer. im practically good in nothing. an F in soccer. an F in singing. hais. nvm. no more of these sad stuff. anw. soccer came. i went in one piece. soccer ended. came out with 2 blisters. well. its a price im willing to pay for soccer. haha.

then was slacking in the youth centre listening to ziwei and ian sing. then i was roped in. then i realise. i tink i've been wasting my time at lwssom. i dun really sing well after so long there. the sound is still coming out from the nostrils. hais. i suck.

anw. sleeping time. some last minute studying has to be done. ciaos.

im back! nono. not that im at ur back. im back as in.. nono. not at ur back lah! im in front of you. just that im back from nt blogging... IM BACK! -.-''

alright. school is hectic.nd as usual. late everyday. i dont know why man. why i just cant wake up no matter how early i slp. its the same. LATE. dont know when can i kick the habit. hais.

anw. workload is getting heavy. deadlines are getting nearer. i haven even started on my computer programming project. shit! and my problem solving project? OMG! i dont know how im going to get them out in time. furthermore, theres studying to be done for my semestral exam. hais. stress. people say poly life is slack. WHAT THE HELL! i've been punk'd. its not slack man.

anw. another week have passed and that means, the nearer it is to the end of my lwssom lessons. hmm. tink i gonna miss the saturdays. haha. but nvm lah. means saturday will have time off to slack at night. enjoy the starry and breezy nights. how great.

gotta find a job soon. or else holiday wld become a bore.

another late nite. duno why. i cant really sleep until its 1am or 2am lately. weird. hope i wld be able to get rid of this bad habit quick.

woke up late today and missed 3hrs of lesson.

today TP's having open house. its scary when u see ur own school being swarmed by outsiders and infuriating when u cant even get to ur tutorials. -.-" people squeezing here and there. when i finally manage to reach the classroom. i was already perspiring like hell. damn.

skip the last lecture. which is maths. actuali thats a lecture that anyone and everyone shld skip. since nobody listens to the lecturer and he is alwaes teaching in a world of his own. nothin comes out from him and nothin goes into us. might as well cancel the whole damn thing. i mean. arent teachers suppose to teach? he doesnt even care if we are talking too loudly. he just continue doing wad he is expected to do for the day and leave. that is bad man. considering that he a highly-paid teacher. nt good man. a big thumbs-down.

alright. i know i shld be sleeping. but just felt like blogging lah. since so long didnt blog alr. might as well.

hmm. life has been hectic for me. as soon as school term starts, i have been struggling. struggling to keep up with the pace of life. keeping up with the sleep i need.

exams is in arnd one more month[?] time. i seriously need o buck up alr. i can alr feel the pressure of retaking any mdules next semester. scary.

back from holiday!!! yeah!!! hold on. why am i so happy. damn!

anw. as we all know. 2 weeks of no school is NO holiday. its far too short. ya. they say its to let us rest. i dont think so man.

been busy for this past 2 weeks. caroling. church christmas celebration. bb. kayaking. the list goes on.

but im glad in this 2 weeks of holidays. i got to know 3. yes. not one but THREE. 3 new friends. haha.

Karin
Catherine
Jinghui

great friends that came.. great friendship to come..


=)